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Six fucking hours on buses today to spend five minutes handing back work equipment. Ridiculous and exhausting. So have some random tablet photos of the Irish countryside being gloomy, plus an alarmingly narrow street, a goffix pretties, and also my face. I have new lip studs, after I haven’t worn lip jewellery in over 2 years (since my fishtail stud flipped out and went down the sink while I was washing my face) and nobody has noticed. Or if anyone has noticed, they haven’t commented on how cute it is. Except my beautician, but part of her job is looking closely at my face and being a booster and she’s good at her job so obviously she’d notice and comment. That’s why I go to her.

But anyway the important part is, I gave all the stuff back to the Datenkraken and I am officially and actually done with that shit. Woo. Now sleep.

Oisin Hennessy: closet goth

sad-jace:

kalimayablack:

sad-jace:

"It’s not my fault"
You know who you are.

"Closet"? I need to try harder

so it continues…

I can stop if you want. I’m not here for nonconsenual gothening.

Oisin Hennessy: closet goth

sad-jace:

"It’s not my fault"
You know who you are.

"Closet"? I need to try harder

Officially no longer employed at the Datenkraken. Between annual leave and a sick note I haven’t actually worked there for six weeks and change but yesterday was my official last day. I still need to return their junk tomorrow, 5hr roundtrip on the bus with luggage not looking forward to. Probably going to spend the entire weekend asleep because it turns out extracting myself was complicated and exhausting. But I’m out. Such a relief. I mean Khoshekh just woke me up at quarter to six by knocking my lamp and daunting comics pile off the nightstand and I was basically happy to be awake. I haven’t been happy to be awake in… Possibly ever. At all.

foryouistellify:

Participate in a Survey About Gender Diversity in Video Games

xekstrin:

wasdplz:

screaming-fan-girl:

ilikelookingatnakedmen:

The <title> of this page is “Do Consumers Want More Women In Video Games?” The results of this survey will be presented at GDC15, so let’s tell ‘em a resounding “FUCK YEAH!”

Please reblog! 

DO IT

DO THE THING

fucking tumblr bomb this shit

ok so “By taking this survey, I acknowledge that I am a game player taking this survey of my own choosing, and that do NOT make video games and are not employed in the video game industry.” is a (badly phrased) part of the participation agreement, so they don’t want me doing this thing, but I’m leaving this here and I hope people who play and support Tower will take the survey and spread the word, because I reckon you guys care about the same stuff I do w/re representation in games.

[ETA] Turns out I didn’t read the article properly and there’s a developer survey as well. https://www.surveygizmo.com/s3/1776663/DevSurvey

Player survey is at https://www.surveygizmo.com/s3/1776666/PlayerSurvey

teratocybernetics:

unknownbinaries:

Character meme. These drawings are, at once, exactly what I intended whenever I try to ‘fix’ them, and a monument built entirely out of bags of shit whenever i go to hit post. I do like where my sketching is going in some bits of this, though, in terms of liveliness.

Fuck it, both blogs get it.

Dude you make it seem like El is some kind of grody drunk clown which she definitely is so that’s awesome

Contact balls are here so have some initial impressions. Also I need to hang my new curtains sometime before it gets cold because the pretty purple ones will not insulate for shit, but it&#8217;s still mostly warm so no big hurry. Anyway, the red one is the Sil-X and the purple one is the HoP own-brand stage ball. In retrospect I probably should&#8217;ve gotten them both the same colour but whatever. I can get a red HoP ball nbd if I need to.
The surface and the finish on them is comparable, and yes that is important. They are very smooth and very shiny and just a little bit grippy but not too much. The finish on the Sil-X is slightly glossier than the HoP, but time and many drops will soon render that so very very irrelevant.
The HoP has a tiny raised branding stamp, and the Sil-X has a tiny plug hole. Both have a very fine seam. So, they&#8217;re neither of them for closeups or isolations. But that&#8217;s not what I got them for and superclear acrylic is the performance standard for a reason. The reason is awesomeness.
The Sil-X is by far the heavier of the two, because it is full of stuff. So for now I&#8217;m using the HoP with my right hand because I don&#8217;t want to put strain on my fucked wrist, and also using the HoP to give my left hand a break when the Sil-X starts to feel too heavy, so that I don&#8217;t fuck my other wrist. Being full of stuff also gives the Sil-X unique ballistic properties, so it gives the smoothest throws and rolls, and the deadest of dead drops, when you drop this thing it just stays.
Being lighter and also not full of stuff, the HoP can fly off more easily and is a bit harder to control, but only by comparison to the Sil-X. It has a good weight to it, very little bounce when dropped, and pretty smooth throws and rolls. It&#8217;s a really good quality stage ball for a budget price.
I will probably end up using the HoP the most to start out because damn my wrists are weak wtf. Stupid desk job fucking all my shit up. Acrylics are bastard heavy though, so practice with the Sil-X will be good for developing the strength and control needed for smoothly transitioning to acrylics. I can already tell the Sil-X will be my favourite practice ball in the long term, but the HoP will be better while I&#8217;m just starting out.
Health-related sidenote, much of the movement in basic single-ball CJ comes from the elbows, not so much the wrists/hands/fingers, so the potential impact w/re RSI and wrist pain is largely down to ball weight.
I absolutely recommend the HoP if you&#8217;re looking for a good practice ball to start with but don&#8217;t want to spend much and/or have weak wrists. If you can spend a little more, and are 1000% certain you can hold 300 grams steady on the back of your fingers, and throw it upwards with and catch it on the back of your fingers, repeatedly, a lot, without straining your wrists at all, then get the Sil-X, it&#8217;s glorious, no wonder everyone loves them. As always, you can use my discount code Kali7 for 5% off your orders at HoP, AND they offer cumulative loyalty discounts for repeat customers.
Additional tip for choosing a ball, keep in mind your practice balls will get crazy scuffed. Black or white practice balls, and very light or dark practice balls, will give scuffs contrast and make them stand out. Red is the classic choice and I think that&#8217;s because the marks won&#8217;t be as visible, so your balls look better for longer. Hee.
I&#8217;d suggest it&#8217;s a good idea to be able to toss juggle reasonably competently before trying contact juggling, because whatever ball you choose is going to fly off in every direction and it helps a lot if you can catch it (less risk of breaking things, less bending and chasing, quicker reset to keep practicing, etc). Toss juggling is great for spatial awareness, object awareness/control, and all round improving your dex score, I mean you wouldn&#8217;t believe the number and variety of things I&#8217;ve caught like a ninja since I started seriously juggling. It&#8217;s also giving me more confidence with taking up contact juggling because I know I will usually catch the thing when I fumble, and I can probably even make it look badass at least half the time.
Speaking of toss juggling, I made a few really bad Russian style balls. I mean they are so bad. I got playpen balls, but they&#8217;re cheap and really flimsy, and no matter what I do I can&#8217;t stop them from buckling. I put balloons around them to reinforce them and it helps a bit, but they still buckle under a firm gaze. They&#8217;re also very small. I used more of the why the hell did I buy so much farina anyway, 50g to a ball. Crappy though they be, they are so superior to the beanbag style ones I made originally, omg I can&#8217;t even tell you how much, it&#8217;s like juggling surly uncooperative bricks that have vertigo vs juggling the gentle winged smiles of angels that really want to be juggled. Instant improvement occurred and I am not exaggerating. They feel really light (I mean of course they do they&#8217;re half the weight of the beanbag ones) so it feels like they could fly off really easily, but they don&#8217;t, they just juggle so smoothly like swish swish swish. So make or buy some of those if you can they&#8217;re great.
And the passport wankers are giving me another panic attack, they want me to do all this shit to support my application, some of which I actually can&#8217;t do without ID and they don&#8217;t seem to get how that could be a problem but they want to reassure me that it&#8217;s all to protect my identity and it&#8217;s like. HOW. HOW DOES MAKING IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO LEGALLY IDENTIFY MYSELF AT ALL. PROTECT MY IDENTITY. HOW. TELL ME THE FUCK HOW. S2FG ENGLAND YOU NEST OF IRRATIONAL UNREASONABLE BICYCLE-FUCKERS. Like at this stage I&#8217;m pretty sure they compared the photos and went THE PERSON IN THE NEW ONE LOOKS A BIT OLDER WE CAN&#8217;T TELL IF IT&#8217;S THE SAME PERSON BECAUSE OUR EYEBALLS ARE IN OUR ANUSES AND OUR BRAINS ARE IN LACUS OBLIVIONIS. I joke but it&#8217;s actually a complete nightmare and I have the stomach weasels. At least two of them have made it up into my throat and I want to cry a lot.

Contact balls are here so have some initial impressions. Also I need to hang my new curtains sometime before it gets cold because the pretty purple ones will not insulate for shit, but it’s still mostly warm so no big hurry. Anyway, the red one is the Sil-X and the purple one is the HoP own-brand stage ball. In retrospect I probably should’ve gotten them both the same colour but whatever. I can get a red HoP ball nbd if I need to.

The surface and the finish on them is comparable, and yes that is important. They are very smooth and very shiny and just a little bit grippy but not too much. The finish on the Sil-X is slightly glossier than the HoP, but time and many drops will soon render that so very very irrelevant.

The HoP has a tiny raised branding stamp, and the Sil-X has a tiny plug hole. Both have a very fine seam. So, they’re neither of them for closeups or isolations. But that’s not what I got them for and superclear acrylic is the performance standard for a reason. The reason is awesomeness.

The Sil-X is by far the heavier of the two, because it is full of stuff. So for now I’m using the HoP with my right hand because I don’t want to put strain on my fucked wrist, and also using the HoP to give my left hand a break when the Sil-X starts to feel too heavy, so that I don’t fuck my other wrist. Being full of stuff also gives the Sil-X unique ballistic properties, so it gives the smoothest throws and rolls, and the deadest of dead drops, when you drop this thing it just stays.

Being lighter and also not full of stuff, the HoP can fly off more easily and is a bit harder to control, but only by comparison to the Sil-X. It has a good weight to it, very little bounce when dropped, and pretty smooth throws and rolls. It’s a really good quality stage ball for a budget price.

I will probably end up using the HoP the most to start out because damn my wrists are weak wtf. Stupid desk job fucking all my shit up. Acrylics are bastard heavy though, so practice with the Sil-X will be good for developing the strength and control needed for smoothly transitioning to acrylics. I can already tell the Sil-X will be my favourite practice ball in the long term, but the HoP will be better while I’m just starting out.

Health-related sidenote, much of the movement in basic single-ball CJ comes from the elbows, not so much the wrists/hands/fingers, so the potential impact w/re RSI and wrist pain is largely down to ball weight.

I absolutely recommend the HoP if you’re looking for a good practice ball to start with but don’t want to spend much and/or have weak wrists. If you can spend a little more, and are 1000% certain you can hold 300 grams steady on the back of your fingers, and throw it upwards with and catch it on the back of your fingers, repeatedly, a lot, without straining your wrists at all, then get the Sil-X, it’s glorious, no wonder everyone loves them. As always, you can use my discount code Kali7 for 5% off your orders at HoP, AND they offer cumulative loyalty discounts for repeat customers.

Additional tip for choosing a ball, keep in mind your practice balls will get crazy scuffed. Black or white practice balls, and very light or dark practice balls, will give scuffs contrast and make them stand out. Red is the classic choice and I think that’s because the marks won’t be as visible, so your balls look better for longer. Hee.

I’d suggest it’s a good idea to be able to toss juggle reasonably competently before trying contact juggling, because whatever ball you choose is going to fly off in every direction and it helps a lot if you can catch it (less risk of breaking things, less bending and chasing, quicker reset to keep practicing, etc). Toss juggling is great for spatial awareness, object awareness/control, and all round improving your dex score, I mean you wouldn’t believe the number and variety of things I’ve caught like a ninja since I started seriously juggling. It’s also giving me more confidence with taking up contact juggling because I know I will usually catch the thing when I fumble, and I can probably even make it look badass at least half the time.

Speaking of toss juggling, I made a few really bad Russian style balls. I mean they are so bad. I got playpen balls, but they’re cheap and really flimsy, and no matter what I do I can’t stop them from buckling. I put balloons around them to reinforce them and it helps a bit, but they still buckle under a firm gaze. They’re also very small. I used more of the why the hell did I buy so much farina anyway, 50g to a ball. Crappy though they be, they are so superior to the beanbag style ones I made originally, omg I can’t even tell you how much, it’s like juggling surly uncooperative bricks that have vertigo vs juggling the gentle winged smiles of angels that really want to be juggled. Instant improvement occurred and I am not exaggerating. They feel really light (I mean of course they do they’re half the weight of the beanbag ones) so it feels like they could fly off really easily, but they don’t, they just juggle so smoothly like swish swish swish. So make or buy some of those if you can they’re great.

And the passport wankers are giving me another panic attack, they want me to do all this shit to support my application, some of which I actually can’t do without ID and they don’t seem to get how that could be a problem but they want to reassure me that it’s all to protect my identity and it’s like. HOW. HOW DOES MAKING IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO LEGALLY IDENTIFY MYSELF AT ALL. PROTECT MY IDENTITY. HOW. TELL ME THE FUCK HOW. S2FG ENGLAND YOU NEST OF IRRATIONAL UNREASONABLE BICYCLE-FUCKERS. Like at this stage I’m pretty sure they compared the photos and went THE PERSON IN THE NEW ONE LOOKS A BIT OLDER WE CAN’T TELL IF IT’S THE SAME PERSON BECAUSE OUR EYEBALLS ARE IN OUR ANUSES AND OUR BRAINS ARE IN LACUS OBLIVIONIS. I joke but it’s actually a complete nightmare and I have the stomach weasels. At least two of them have made it up into my throat and I want to cry a lot.

meanwhile, the goths in tropical climates have a single tear roll down their face…XD

Which is TOTALLY goth :D

to what degree of happiness is this?

Pretty happy. More than seven of happy. There’s all Halloween stuff in the shops, the weather is nice for picnics, it’s about to be trees doing orange, there’s brambles, it’s cool enough to wear spicy/woody fragrances without smelling like a builder’s crack, kittens are getting lanky and skittish, there’s omens on the wind, yew berries soon, cryptogoth fall collections, halloween-themed food objects, spoopy, creppy, skeletons.

"Happy as a goth in September" should be a thing people say